Sides of Me

Get away

So clingy

Don't expect anything from me

I'm not a good person

I'm not willing to give any part of me

To me you're nothing

Don't be good to me

I see it as weak

I will keep you beyond reach

Because I don't believe I'm deserving

Stop coming to me for everything

I don't feel anything

When you come to me

Your emotions don't reach

Stop texting

It's overwhelming

Overstimulating

Stop trying to grab me

Get your fucking hands off me

I can't fucking breathe.

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Be mean to me

So I can prove I'm worth something

Forget me

So I can beg to be seen

I love the hate you have for me

It's the only thing I can believe

I can't stop performing

Your love is all I need

I'll do anything

I'll cling and cling

Till I bleed

Till we're both bleeding

Till you're hitting me

Kicking me down

And Sawing off my arms

Even then I will push with my feet

Dragging my face on pavement

To not lose you

Because I pushed away everything

To be with you

I know that disgusts you

But I don't want to know the reality without you

Just don't come to me

Don't love me

The moment you say you want to be with me

I will leave.

Treat me like nothing so I can continue loving.